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“YouknowAmalia,Iwentbackseveraltimestothezootoobservethatchimpanzee.Sometimes,helookedsadandthoughtful,butatothertimesheseemedhappyandpyful.I’veetotheclusionthatheisphilosopher.Hemusthavefoughtlikeaeredbeastwhenhewasfirstcaptured.Butthen,hefoundmanwasstrohanhe,andthatescapetothewildwherehecamefromossible.Hegedhisattitudeandbecameaic.Iwasstruckbythesimiritybetweenus.Theretioweenhimandhiscellisthesameasthatbetweenmyfleshbodyandfate.Onlyhisassiveandimposedonhim,whileminewasactivelyimposedonmyselfofmyownfreewill.Iwillinglyboundmyfleshbodysothatitwouldnotdoanythingmorallyoutoftracktoatoneforyoursins,Amalia.”
"Whydon’tyouturnonthelight?"sheasked.
"It’snotyourfault….”Therewassileheroom,butitwasafortableandpanionablesilenwhichtheirsoulsunicatedandtheyuoodeachotherwithoutwords.herofthemwasveryvolubleandtherewasusuallymoresilehantalkwhentheyweretogether.AfterawhileMariannasaid."Wellgoandlookforanapartmentforyou.Youneedapcetostay.I’lltakecareofitallforyou.Ihatetoseeyoulivethelifeyoudidwithnopermashelterorfood,exposedtotheheat,thecoldandtherain.Inmyeyes,youareanobleureate.Youshouldhaveawarmwhereyoudreamandwriteyourpoems,enjoyyourwineandassociatewithwomen,notnecessarilyme.”TearsshimmeredinDimitri’seyes.Noonehadevercaredthatmubefore.
"Iknowasecretpassageintothefortress.Iwillleadtheway”shesaid."Butonlyononedition:Youmustkilleverylivingthinginthesemountains,menandanimals."DonKaffeewaseted,butDimitriwassorrowfuedtofindthatforallhispainstIleentolifeagairedforhimwasashighasthemountainsandasdeepastheos.
Chapter3Amalia
“That’sterrible”hethought,“I’vebuandmadethingsworse.NowIleenhatesmemorethanever.Imusttrytofindanopportunitytoexpinitalltoher.”
"Yes,I’msorry.Ishouldhaveknownyouweremarried.Ishouldhaveasked."
"Mommy!Mommy!ehere.Iwonnagohome.”MariannalookedatDimitrisilentlyforanothermihenwalkedslowlyaway,furtivelywipinghereyes,repeatedlylookingbackasifloathingtogo.Dimitriwavedgood-byetoherandwatchedassherejoinedherfamily.
ThechurchbellstookDimitri’sthoughtstoheaven.Helookedattheskiesandthought."Dotheresidentsofheavehesamewayaswedo?Dotheygotowork?Dotheirchildrengotoschool?Dotheyhavetraffis?Dotheirchildrenpyintheparkafterschool?Whatareyoudoing,Amalia,mysweetmother?Arethereanychurchesinheaven?Doyougotochurchthere?Theysaylifeinheavenistheultimatebliss,wherenooneworksackfornothing.Everyonehasfood,hesandliveleisurely.Liveleisurely?Whygotoheavenforthat?Iliveleisurelyenoughhereoh!Iwoheyvoteinheaven,whothechiefexecutiveisandoliticalsystemtheyhave.Dotheyhaveintricatewslikewedo?Dotheyhavewars?Iftheydon’t,whatdotheydo?Justloafaround?OrisheavenlikeahugemonasterywhereeveryonelivestheaustereandSpartanlifeofmonks?Nooneeverdiesthereandeveryooliveooeternity.Isn’tthatablife?OrperhapsheavenislikealuxuriespadmysweetmotherAmaliaislivingtherelikeaqueen,wearingexquisitesilkdressesembroideredwithgoldenthreads,surroundedbyherdies-in-waiting.Musicwouldbepyedbyroyalmusiswhilefragranceofrareinsestedhersurroundings.Intoxicatedbythemusic,shewouldinvoluntarilyrisetodance,herbeautifundvoluptuousfiguregracefusthewillowswayinginthebreeze.Butno,thatmaynotbepossible.Sheleftthisworldiricchair.Wouldshebeabletoehegatesofheaven?”
“Somethingmustbeupiftheysendoutthisurgentcallforme!”hethought."Imustarrahisfleshbodyofmineinasuitablepdgobaydreamndatonce.”Dimitriiddownhisgardeningtoolsabacktothehouse.Ah,thereerthatMariannahadboughtforhimwouldbethebestpce,hethought.Heybaitandfelsleep.
Faint,faintfeelingstanglinginthemind,
"Iwillferohetitleof“QueenofmyKingdomofDreams”.Herfigureisontheplumpsideandsheisnolongeryoungasmyotherbeautiesare,buthermannersandbearingaredignifiedandimpressive.She’dmakeaperfectroyalspouseforme,myequandnotmysubordinate.Unfortunately,sheismarried.Butsowhat?It’sonlymyfantasy.Shealwaysbethequeenofmydreams”.Seeinghimstaringathersoily,Mariaembarrassed.Sheblushedandsaid,
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Dimitrisatonthebenchtalkingtohimself.
wnawomanofMarianna’sagecouldhoutafamily.Howstupidofmenottohaveasked.HowunfortunateofmetohavemetthewomanIloveonlytofindsheisanotherman’swife!”Hekwashisownover-simplisticcharacteratwaiookanotherlookatthetwoiosenseofremorse.Hehadwrohesesimple,trustingpeoplewhowouldneverhaveimaginedevenintheirwildestdreamthatMariannawaslivingwithanothermanandhavinganuninhibitedsexualretionshipwithhim.
Ohirdday,thetenthousandthfighterwascreated.heseemedtoknowhisdestinationandrantojoinhisrades-in-armsimmediately.Thetwenty-fournudebeautiessighedinreliefandcppedtheirhandsinjoyathavingfulfilledtheirseeminglyimpossiblemission.Butthreedaysofceaselesshardworkhadtakeolndtheyalllookedlusterless,disheveledaodropwithfatigue.Dimitricamegedandkissedeaesaying"Nowgoand.Youhavedoneawonderfuljob.Itistimetosleep,restandrecoveryourbeautyandenergy.”
"IfIcouldlivemylifeagain,Iwouldspenditinhappinessandenjoyment,happyandcarefreeasthoseteen-agers,”hethought.Nearhim,ayoungmotherandherone-year-oldboywerepyingtogetheronthegrasswiththeirgolderiever.Thelittleboy,justlearningtowalk,chedhischubbyfistsandmadeboxingmovements,whithisdotingmotherintopealsofmerriment.Suddeumbledandfell.Hismotherrushedtohisaid,buthesatonthegrassandugheduproariously.Thedograojointhefunandlickedhisface.Themotherpickedhimupandhuggedhimtightlytoherbreastsandhecspedhisarmsaroundhernedkissedhersmilingfacerepeatedly,hisughingeyesasbrightasthetwinklingstars."IfIwerehe,hoy1wouldbe!”thoughtDimitri.“Icouldembracemymotherandkissher.Inprimitivetimes,thatlittleboycouldeasilyhavebeeapreyofwildbeasts.Mankindhasealongwaysihen,afteranarduousjourneyofbillionsofyearsofevolutioleone-year-oldboyisnowohresholdoflife,learningtowalk,butananimalofhisage,likethegolderiever,isalreadyabletoproliferate.Perhapstheheanimal,themoretimeitogrowup.”
Amistymoonpeepedoutfrombehindsomeclouds,graduallysendingouthertranslutrays.Onastrusite,rowsoflong-neckedes,sturdybulldozers,dredgersandrollersstoodsilentandmotionless.Fromafar,theyresembledtheenormousdinosaursthatruledtheearthbillionsofyearsago.Nowthesegiganticcreatureshadlongdisappearedfromthefaceoftheearth.Inthespaceofanight,theworldseemedtohaveturopsy-turvy.Arethesesteendironmaestheirmodernterparts?Drowsily,Dimitrifelgainintohissweetdreams.
"Whenyouseeher,tellhertoruhesedaystherewillbedrastigesinherhousehold.”
"HowcouldyoustandthiseorturedayafterdayAmaliamysweetmother?"thoughtDimitri."Hoefullynowandthenyoucouldleavethefierywatersandclimbashoreforalittlerespite,eatsomethingandhideforamomentinaerbeforebeingpiercedbyaforkandthrownbatothefmesbytheguardsoftheUnderworld.OhAmalia,mysweetmother,doyoueverthinkofmethewayIthinkofyou?Me,youronlysonwhomyouleftalohisworld.No,shewouldn’t"thoughtDimitrisadly.Whenhevisitedherforthesttimeinhercellthedaybeforeshewastodie,shewasuntamed,abusiveandshrewishasever.Sheturnedonhim,snarling,
Dimitriwasrudelyawakeheinsistentringingofthephoillhalfasleep,hehadnotquiteshakenoffthemencholyeffectofhisdream.HeheardthefamiliarvoiariannatellinghimofwhathadhappeheKaffees,thatshewasatthegaragefixingherdwouldbehomesoontogoapartmenthuntingwithhim.Heansweredinmonosylliublesofonly‘OK’and‘yes’andhungup.Hesatthereforawhile,adjustingtotherealworldhehadebacktoandthought,"Thehappeningsofthesestfewdaysarereallylikeadream,butmydreamsthoughbazarre,seemsoreal!However,realityorfantasyitisallpastanddoh.IhaveruinedIleen’slife;IakethesamemistaketwidruinMarianna’saswell.Iamadreamer,bestsuitedtothecarefreelifeIhadbeenliving.WhystayonhereunfortablycoopeduparoyingthelifeofthewomanIlove?Dreamsmaybetrueoritmaynot,butmybittersweetentawithIleenisover,soisthecrisisinmyKingdom.Myfuturedreamsshouldbesweetohinkingso,hisspiritslifted.LeavingahecoffeetableforMarianna,hepushedouthisshoppingcart,stillintactwithhisbelongings,aonhisway,light-heartedandcarefree,thoughalittlepeheonlythingofMarianna’sthathetookwithhimwastheredscarfshehadknittedespeciallyforhim.
"Tellherthatanyway”insistedDimitristubbornly.
IoftheChiefturionoftheRomanLegiomospherewastense.DimitrisawDonKaffeewithhisdarkgssesandexpressionlessfacediscussingpnsofattackwithhisgenerals.Thediscussionhadevidentlybeengoingonforquitesometime.TheRomangeneralswereadamant.
"Whatdoesyourhusbanddo?"
"Soyouknow"shesaiddully.
"Scramyousnivelingbastard!Idon’twanttoseeyourface.Iwouldn’thavebeenhereifIwasn’tburdehyou.”Herviciousandfiendishexpressionrosebeforehimandhecouldalmosthearherhissoutherstvenomouswordstohim“Iregretnothing.Eveniftheyyhead,it’sonlyabowl-likescar.Scram,youbitch’sbastard!GettheFKoutofhere!”Shespitoutthesespitefulwnashieethasthoughtosplihem.Dimitri’shearttractedinpainasherememberedthatpartingse.
"HowhaveyoubeenDimitri?”sheaskedchokingwithemotion."I’velookedeverywherebutcouldn’tfindanytraceofyou.Isthishowyouhavebeenliving?"Shelosttrolofhervoidwasalmostsobbing.Dimitriwasremorsefulforhavinghurther,butheonlyremainedsilent.Amiddle-agedmanandaboywerestandingbyaparkeddtheboywascalling
AfterthegreatbattlewiththeRomansoldiers,thiuronormandDreamndwasrestoredtoitsinalpeadcalm.ButKingDimitrihadmysteriouslydisappearedandhadnotbeenheardofsince.Usedtohisetricways,thetwenty-fourbeautieslivedtheirleisurelylives,pursuingtheirowsastheyhadalotofidletimeontheirhands;buttheycouldn’thelpfeelingalittlelostandlonely.Ianceahelicopter,silveryandshiny,wasseenflyingtowardsthendingfieldontherighttipoftheTwinPeaks.Aishalookeddownatthegoonwithitssurroundingmountains,attherefleoftheglitteringyellowtilesoftheesepace-likebuildingaawarmsenseofhomeing.Shendedhercraftpreciselyandaccurately,fullydemonstratingherskilerity.Shesteppeddownposedlyfromherhelicopter,carryiwobooksshehadgonedowntothevilgepostofficetoget.Theflightmeicsrushedovertothesmallpactflyingmaewithitstransparentbodyfullyexposingitssilveryinterior,designedespeciallyforthetwenty-fourbeautiesasameansoftransportation.Theypusheditawaytotheairbaseforrefuelingandmaintehereavarietyofheliceandsmallwereassembled.
"I’mafraidIdidn’thaveanystnight.”
"ImetMrs.KaffeetheotherdayandsheaskedmetocateradinnerforMr.Kaffeeandhisfriendstonight.Iwasjustgoinguptoaskthemaboutthemenu."
“Manisonlyawarm-temperaturedanicbody,nodifferentfromanimals,withthesamesexualhebeginningoflifestartedwiththeunionofthespermwiththeovaryiheuterus.Thesinglecelltookthreebilliooevolveintohumanlife.Moderellsusthatthegrowthofafertilizedcellintoababyisarepetitionofthesameprocessofevolution,butittakesonlyhs.Ithinkthattheelementoffateisaddedatthemomentofception.Withoutthiselement,everyonewouldbethesame.Theywouldlookalike,havethesamelifespanandtherewouldbenosuccessesorfailures,justlikeproductsfromafactoryassemblyliheexterioroftheembryosofallmammonlookthesame,butthedifferentgehemmakethemgrowintodifferentanimals:cows,sheep,pigsetc.WhatIcalltheelementoffateisiainwaysretedtogenes.Ofcourse,thisisonlymydaringassumptionwithoutmuchevideosupportit.Butlifeisamysterynoonehasbeeosolve.”
Justthen,familiarfootstepssouhededthefigureofMariannaappeared,sailinginfromtheopendoor.WhenshesawDimitrisittingaloneagainstthewindowinthemoonlight,sheclosedthedoorandcametositbesidehim.
"Thesemountaiuralgeographicbarrier.Justlikeafortress,theyareeasytodefendbuthardtoattack.Wemustsendoutscoutsandmakeroughmilitarymapsbeforedegonapnofattack.”
"ThankyouSireforlettingmeliveagain.”shemurmuredkneelingathisfeet.
"Iamgrowingoldinthespringbreeze.IfIhadknownhowhardlifewouldbe,I’dhaveledinmymother’swombforeverandneverhaveetothisworld.Itmusthavebeensnugandcozythere,hertoowarmnortoocold,likelyinghalfasleepandhalfawakeonahammock,swayinginthespringbreeze,lostidreams.”Later,DimitrifinallyfoundhislonglostmotherandweledhertohismysteriousKingdomwhereshelivedhappilyeverafterwiththefilialdevotionandpanionshipofDimitriandhisbeauties.Butthatistobedealtwithintheepilogue.
AttheAdministrativeter,thetwenty-fourbeautiesreportedthehappeningsofthepasttwodaystoKingDimitri.Theradarshadpickedupsignalsearmyofabout200,000soldiersoftheaRomanEmpireadvangandsurroundingthemountains.Theyhadbeenastooseethoseaghostsmargtowardsthem,armleaming,spearsshiningandpennantsflyinginthewind,theirhorsestrottingandsnimpatientlyontheway.Onourside,detepneshadbeeand500ablebodiedyoungnativesfromthemountainshadbeestrategicspots,buttheyneededKingDimitribacktotakeandofthedangeroussituation.Dimitriwasaghastatthisturs.Hepacedtheroomwithaheavyheart,browsknitted,regrettinghisimpulsivedecisiontopunishDonKaffee,whichresultedinthisuedattackbyRomantroops-theDon’spatriots.Hekhattheenemyoverwhelmedhiminnumbersandoheykheyofthend,theywouldattack.Thateanthepletedestruofhisnewlyestablishedempire.Allhishopesandpnswouldetonothing.Butthen,hisproudandstubbornnaturecametohisaid."No,Iwon’tgiveup.Notwithoutagoodfight!Imustknowwhattheenemy’spnsare"hedecided.Hewentbacktohiscouddreamed.
Faintduskfogbyfaintgreenpins,
Thewallsofthestudywerelihbookcasesfromfloortoceiling,allfilledwithbooks.Theylookedalittledisorderly,butwiththedisorderlinessoffrequentusage.Onthepinkcarpetcthefloor,werepilesofbooks,someonanthropology,someoernreligionandsomeooryofcivilization,carefullyselectedbythemistressofthestudy.hewindow,therewasargewhiteiniddeskgildedingold,madewithexcellentcraftsmanship.Itwasfortusuchabeautifulpieceofarthadfoundamistresswhoplemeawell.Atthemoment,shewasgatheringmateriandpreparinganimportaobereadattheiionacademicmeeting,justasshehaddonemanytimesbefore.Asshewalkedintoherroom,Aishabegantotakeoffherclothes.Shewasawomahirties,withskinpureaswhitejade,wearingaesestyleknotatthenapeofherneck.Whenshewaspletelynaked,shesatdowntowork.Toherclotheswereusedtoresistcoldandnottobewornwhenunnecessary.Shehadastronggreedforthefullestsensationofherbodyandtobefreefrombohereforenottobehamperedbyanyclothingwhilereseargwasheretricity.Sopreoccupiedwassheonherreadingthatanythingelsewasoblivious;andtheonlysoundsintheroomweretheturningofpageswhileshesedthroughherbooksforwhatevershewahenshewouldtypepartofherthesisnimblyandswiftly.Aishastoppedtypingforamoment,leanedbaherchair,frowningintration,thinkingofhowbesttoexpressherideas,whenhereyeshappeofallooofamiddle-agedmanonherdesk.Hewasanordinary-lookingman,amutto,withnospeciallydistinguishablefeatures,wearinganolive-coloredsafarihattiltedatanangle.Hisftnose,darkbrowneyesandolddisarrayedclothingseemedmoresuitableforajanitorthanKingDimitri,buthissmilewaskindandendearing.
Battlecriedresounded.KingDimitri’ssoldierswerenakedandweldedonlyprimitiveons,butitdidhem.TheselioedwarriorschargedferociouslyatthefullyarmoredRomanLegions.Totheirastonishmentandbewilderment,thewarriorsfoundthatthoughtheRomanswerefullyequipped,theywerenotsolidshapes,butonlyillusionaryphantoms.WhentheyrushedheadlongintotheranksofthestatelyRomanLegions,theirattackbroughtwithitagustofwhirlwind,onimpactofwhichthephantomsdispersedinalldires.Amidtheturmoilofbattle,allthatcouldbeseenwasonesolitarywoman,uglyanddeformedbymultiplescarstryingtoescape.Medusa,mountedobcksteed,reizedhertobethetraitorIleen.Takinganarrowfromherquiver,shetookaimatthepreyandwithoneinfallibleshotpiercedherthroatbeforeKingDimitricouldstopher.Dimitriimmediatelyspurredhishorseandgallopedover,butIleenwasalreadydead.Hereyeshoweverwerewideopenandfullofhate.Helookedatherregretfully,rememberingtheirpastretionship.Shehadbeenhisfavoriteeformanyyearsandhadtributedmuchtowardshisempire.Thusherundyinghatredforhimwasinaway,justified.
Ah!Whyshouldn’tthefleshbodygrowold?Wearebutmortal,so’tisimpossibletotheerosionoftimebeimpregnable.Wearebutmortal,so‘tisquitenaturaltofindbeguilingcaressesirresistible.Sincewearemortal,we’remadeoffleshandblood.Howmanytimeswemakelove?36,000timesatthemost,I’vebeentold.More,ofcourse,ifyou’remadeofsteruff.Whyshouldn’tthefleshbodygrowold?Activeschoolchildrenjustoutofcss,run,jumpandpyonthegrass.Thereinmyskullfreshideasdance,imp-likeandpyful,justlookingforacemysweetdreamstoenhance.Dreamsaremylife,Ilovethemdear.Foradventure,loveandsatisfatheyhavenopeer.Butthewarmcozydaysarenotforever,that’sclear.PerhapsIshouldenjoythemwhilethey’rehere.WhenIdreamIwilldreamofAmalia-mymotherwhoseldomgavememuchear.YouleftmealonewhenIneededyoudear,butthenyouwereboundtoyourelectricchair.Withyou,youtookoldJaIfear.Areyouthere?IwonderasIlookatthesky.Orareyoudownbelow?Butwhereveryouare,Ifeelthetie.I’llsearmydreamshighandlow.
"Pleasedon’tworryaboutme,Marianna"hemurmured."Imayappearpennilessandhomeless,buttheearthandtheskyallbelongtome.Iseempoor,butIamrichbeyondimagination.IamKingDimitri!"Asthecardroveaway,Mariannalookedbackathimoutofthewindow,eyesmoistwithtears.ShesawDimitristillstandingtherewavingatherwiththebrightredscarfsnuglyaroundhisneafsh,hisfigureseemedtovanishlikealonelywildbird,flyingacrosstheskiesiwilighttounknowinations.
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Aisha’sthoughtsflewbacktotheirfirstmeetingattheluxuriousboardroomoftheFoundationofAnthropologyandHumanCivilization.ThoughAishawasyoungaiful,herresearchhadwoernationalfameandtherespectofschorsallovertheworld.Sonoonewasgreatlysurprisedwhenshewasaskedtoleadateamofstists,whoweretodoextensivereseardestablishapleteandexhaustivefileonthedifferenttribesofhumansthathadexistedorstillexistonthisearthofours,includiprimitive.Itwasastaggeringproject,requiringhundredsofpartitsaensivefunding.Shewaschosenbothforherexpertiseandherdedicationtoherwork.NowAishalookedatthemansittingoppositeheratthetable.HeresidentoftheFoundationandmainfinancialbackeroftheirproject.buthewasshabbilydressedandcouldeasilyhavebeentakenforajanitor.Hisspeechshowedhisckofformaleducationandtainednostificjargon,butitwasciseandtothepointahdeepintellectualpowerswhichbeliedhismediocreappearance.Hisopeningspeechwasverysimple.Hesaidthereasonhewasfundingthisprojectwasbecausehebelievedtheevolutionofhumancivilizationwasnotasmysteriousasmostpeoplethought.Fromhisobservationofchildrenatpy,hecametotheclusionthatitwasmorelikethepurposelessgameschildrenpyed.Onlyaftermillionsofyearsofzigzaggedges,diditetobewhatitwastoday.Hecludedbysayingthatittothoseesteemedstistsandschorspresenttotrace,researdexpinthosedeviousges.AsAishalistened,herrespeincreased.Inafewwordshehad1aiddowntheprinciplesforthereseardmadeaplexprojectseemsimple.Asshegottoknowhimbetter,shewasmesmerizedbyhimandvoluntarilyfollowedhimtohisKingdominthesecludedmountains.GraduallyKingDimitribecamehergreatmentorandsheroudtobeeoneofhistwenty-fourbeauties.
"Impossible!”saidMr.Kaffee“That’soutofthequestion.Timeisoftheesseackatallcost!”
Them,Dimitriatdawnandsittingontheparkbenchdrinkingcoffee.Themfogturnedeverythingiaoawhitemass.ThereflesoftheswayingbraheweepingwillowsoilesswavesofLakeMerrittseemedtopersonifyadnguidwoman,half-yielding,half-resisting.Dimitriwasgroggyandsufferingfromahangroanedandsaidtohimself,"NowwhydidIhavetogoanddrinksomuight?Thatwasreallystupidofme.Butwhat’stheharmofanoccasionalfling?IwonderwhatAmaliaisdoingnow.Perhapsshesleepsonacloudandrefreshedfrht’srestisnowsittingbeforehermirror,bingherhairandmakingherselfbeautifulfortheday.IwohereisstillthedifferenceofsexesinHeaven.Ifthereis,isAmaliastilsiedinsexualintercoursewithmultipartnersasshewasoh?Perhapstheyallliveonclouds,lightlyfloatingalroundtheuniverse.Whentwoeet,theywoulduniteinapassionateandcrushingembradmakeloveoherybuoyantcloud,theiriyandenjoymentincreasingwiththelullingandslightlyrogmovementofthecloudasitfluctuateswiththewind.Afterthatbriefunion,theywouldfloatapart,eachgoinghisownway.IfAmaliaisasiedinsexassheusedtobe,thatwouldbeidealforher.Oh,heavenlyresidentsmuststillhavesex,orAmaliawouldbeboredtodeath!”
Aishasighedasshelookedatthephotoonherdesk.Hisnatural,iwanderlustwasastrangecharacter
Likesleeasingfingersontheharpstrings,
"Hi,Mr.Sandman.Youdidn’tsendmeanygooddreamsstnight.Whatmagnifitdreamsdidyouhavethatyousharewithme?"
"Inaimes,longbeforemaheearth,springwasalreadythebesttimeforproliferation.nights,numerousanimalswouldseektheirmatesandcoputetoperpetuatetheirbreed.Maninallydidthesame,butnowthathehasprogressedfarbeyondtheanimalkingdom,sexhasbeoreofaphysijoymentthantheneedofnaturefeion.Inthecoverofdarkonight,doyouknowhoeoplearedoingjustthat?”
ThenDimitri’smindbecamebnkayasthemmist,butafamiliartuteninhisyouthpersistentlycroppedintohissciousness:
"Isn’titbettertositinthemoonlight?"repliedDimitri.
AssoonasMaria,Dimitribeganw.Helovedgardeninganderfectlyhappypruningandtrimmirees.Ataboutnineo’clockheheardaslightbutinsistentnoiseinhisears,simirtothehummingofabee.Hestoppedwandlisteently.Thenoisebecamemoredistinctthoughstilldistant.Itkeptrepeating,
Suddenly,golden-hairedMary,hertightbluejeansandwhiteblousecameontothese,carryingabackpadrunningtoherpanionsatthebus-stop,hergoldenhairflyinginthewind.Dimitrigazedatthefamiliarform,puzzled,searghismemoryforwherehehadseenherbefore.Suddenly,aseatthezoofshedintohismind.Itwasmany,manyyearsago,whenDimitriwasstillinhisearlyteens.OnedayhewenttotheOakndZootokilltime.Suddenlyheheardwomenscreamingandsawacrowdgatheringatthecageofthechimpanzee,jostlingandexg.Feelingcurious,heweoo.Thechimpanzeewasmasturbatinghimselfvigorously.Agirlinthecrowdcoveredherfacewithherhandsbutwasstillpeekingthroughherfihechimpanzee,whichheldsomewaterinhismouth,sprayeditather,wettingherfadhair.Justthen,theschoolbusarrivedaeen-agersscrambledoncallingtooher,jostlingandughingastheycrowdedthroughthesmalldoor.Thatgirtthezoowasthesplittingimageofgolden-hairedMary,butthenofcourseitcouldn’tpossiblybe,becausethree,fourdecadeshadpassedsihen.
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"Do!Getup,zybone,andseehowyoulikethenewscarfImadeforyou.”Goingtothecloset,shetookoutaburgundyredwoolensuitsuitableforwinterwearaoge.Herfigurewasfullbutbeautiful.Dimitrilookedatherandthought,
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"ButIhurttwoipeople.”
Self-pitywelledupandhealmostcried."Whydidymeintothisworld?Why?IcallmyselfDimitriJa,butwhoknowswhatkindofbloodflowsthroughmyveins.NotoldJa’s,that’sforsure.Awholevariety!"Theangerfredupagain."Pyaroundifyouwant,butyoushouldn’thavegottenyourson-of-a-bitch’slovertomurderoldJatopayyamblis.Hewasdettous.Youdeservedtodie.Youdid.Youdid.Yhtallthisonyourself.Ihadnothingtodowithit,youbitch!Bitch!Bitch!!!"Dimitriraisedhisvoidwasshoutinghysterically.Suddenly,hestoppedtalkingaosphimselfonthecheek."WhatabumIamtotalklikethisaboutmyownmotherwhohasbeendeadalltheseyears.Ifshewasbad,sheunishedforitandpaidherdues.WhoamItobeheriudge?HowgoodamI?WhohaveIinthisworld?”Hebawledlikeachild,huddledinaeroftherosegarden.Butthen,hisfiouchedthebottleofliquorandhemumbledtohimself"Yes,Imightaswellgetdrunk!Mightaswellgetdrunk!”
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Withthat,Dimitritookouthisunfitleofliquorandtookanotherquaff.TheactivitiesofDimitri’sbrainweregraduallysloweddoorbytheliquor.buthismother’sstwordstohimresoundedrepeatedlyinhisearuntilhecouldstanditnomore.
"Iwouldn’tgoifIwereyou.Strahingshavebeenhappeninginthathousethesestfewdays.Itwaslikegustsofwindbeforeastorm,forebodingevil.Mr.Kaffeetookhisyadsailedawaywithoutsayingwherehewasgoingorwhenhewouldreturn.ItalllookedfishytomesoItooktheearanddroveoff.Idon’twanttogetinvolvedinthismess.Ifyou’rewise,youwoher.”Withthatshedroveawayhastily.Mariannakobeanavariciouswoman,alwaystoadyinguptoMrs.Kaffeeandsteppingonothersforherownadvaothepostofjewelry-keeper.Watghercarswiftlydisappearing,Mariannathoughtically,"Sheprobablyabsdedwiththejewelrytoo!Thiswholebunchmaybeentangledinadog-fight,whoknows?"Theurnedhercararoundabackthewayshecame.Policesirensscreamedandsquadcarswhizzedby."Somethingmustreallyhavehappened!"shethought.
Dimitrisuddehathisbdderwastoofull,soheslippedintoaclumpoftreesago.Theflowwentonandonandsurprisedhimbythequantityofurinehehadbeenholdingin.Suddenlysomethingthathadbeentroublinghimsincehisyouthcametomind."Thedesignofaman’sbodyisnical,"hethought."Whyisaman’ssexualansandhisurinatingahesame?Theyshouldbeintwoseparatepces.Butwhereshouldthesexualahehead?No,that’stooexposed.Iwouldputitonthehand,likeasixthfinger.No,thatwon’tdoeither.Itwouldhamperthehandthathastodoheavymanualworksometimesandthatwouldhurtthepeniswhichissosensitive.Ohwell,Isupposetheinaldesignisthebest.Itkillstwobirdswithoosocarriedawaywithhisthoughtsthathestoodtherefingeringhispenis,fettingtoputitbatohistrouserslongafterhehadfinishedurinating.
Aisha:
"HowItellherthat?Youhavenoprooforevidenceexceptforyourintuition.”
"Why,Katheri’syou!What’sthehurry?"Katheriookasedlookandsaid,
Boredwithwaitingiohavehercaratteo,Mariannastrolledleisurelyacrossthestreetforacupofcoffee.Shelookedatthediamsparklingerandwaseted.Butasshesatthere,shewasonceagainstruckwiththeunfortablethoughtthatsomehowDimitriseemedtohavehadfhtofwhatwasgoingtohappeuprestlesslyandcalledhimathome.Hisidabsentmindedrepliesarmedherstillmore,soshethrewdownsomemohetable,crossedthestreet,tookhercarfromthewaitinglihegarageanddrovehastilyhome.
Daylightdemurelyclosedhereyesandacceptedthekissoftheprinight.Gradually,almostimperceptibly,nightanddaymergedintoone.Whenthefullmooninhersilvery,luminoussplendorshoherosegarden,shesasyDimitrimakinghiswaybackafterthhlydrowninghissorrowsinliquor.Hehadfottenabouthischildhoodtraumaandy.Normallyretit,winemadehimtalkativeaasthoughhehadalottosay.Hespokealoudtothegeousrosesthatseemedtonodwiselyiintheslightbreeze.Suchareceptiveaudiencedhimtorambleonandon,walkingabout,gesturingexpressivelyonunsteadyfeet.
"Whysorry?"shegavehimherwarmhands."Loveneedsnoapologies.”
“Amalia,myattitudetowardsfateislikethatofwater,whichflowsoverthesurfaceoftheearth,huggingtheriseandfalloftheterrainwithoutpromisingitsownnature.Ifitmeetswithobstacles,itwillstop,detourandtakeah;butwillstilltinueflowingtowardsitsdestination.Obedierebellious,thatisthesecretofgwithfate,heractivenorpassive.Thismayseemobscure,butinmylife,theyarepatibleandexistinperfectharmony.Inmyobservationsofthechimpanzee,Irealizedthathehadgivenuprebellionandhisownfreewill.Hebowedtothefutilityofresistandsowasnolongerrebellious.Hiseyesweredocilebutsly.Tomakethebestofabaddeandfindjoyamidhardship,hepyedpracticaljokesonhumans.Iwouldliketoreverttoman’snaturalprimitiveeaurntotheanimalstatewewereinbeforeevolution.ThatdoesnotmeanIwouldgosofarastomasturbateinpubliclikethechimpahatisimpossiblebecausemillionsofyearsofcivilizationhadpassedandIainstfateasthhlyashe.SoIhaveshapedmyownattitudetowardsfatelikethetheoryofwater,geamebuttenacious.Yourattitude,Amalia,istheexactopposite.Youwerelikefire,untrolbleaating.Thatisthemaindiffereweenyouandme.Oh,Amalia,tellmehowIatoneforyoursins."
"WhydidhesaythattherewouldbedrastigesintheKaffeehouseholdinadayortwo?WhydidhewaellMrs.Kaffeetorun?Howdidheknowhername?"Justthen,awhiteRollsRoyce,whichMariannareizedasbelongingtoMrs.Kaffee,camerushingdownthemountainroad,swayingdrunkenly.
"OfcourseIwill,Marianna.Ihavenothingtodoanyway.”Mariannaheldupthescarfshehadfihaflourishandsaid,
TheteautumnsunwasstillpowerfundshonewarmlyonDimitri’sseeminglymotionlessfleshbodylyingfortablyonthereer.Buthisbrainwaswhirlingwithactivity.Thecragofdryleavesastheywerecrushedbypassingautomobilesandthedroningofairpnesoverheaddidnotdisturbhisslumber.Ifhecouldsleeponforeverlikethis,itwouldactuallybeablessingbecausethenhewouldbeabletoliveforeverinhisdreamswithouthavingtofacereality.Thefragranceoffreshly-madecoffeepermeatedtheroomandblendedexcellentlywiththeclear,crispautumnair.
"He’sacarpenter,anexcellerustworthyandhardwman.Mysonisaffeateandlovable.You’lllovehimtooifyoumeethim.”Thereregnantsilence.Mariannasnuggledclosertohimandleanedherheadonhisshoulder."IpromisedtocaterasupperforMrs.Kaffeetomorrow.soI’llbebusy.OnSundaywe’lllookforanapartmentsomewherearoundhere,nottoofarawaybutnottooher.”Sheraisedherlipstohisandtheykissed.Soontheirbreathbecameshorterandtheirbodiesfusedtogetherinapassionateembrace.However,theytrolledtheirdesiresforfearthetwopeopleioonceagaihoughtheywerefarawayinItaly.
"WhatshallIdo?"heaskedhimselfdesperately.Histhoughtsthenturohisdreams."WhatrighthaveItoexecuteIleensocruellyforadulterywhenIhavebeendoingthesamethingmyself?"Heseemedtobesailingaloheclearicywatertothepceofexecution.
Twomonthster,Dimitri’ssolitaryfigureappearedoncemoreathisfavoritehaunt-LakeMerritt.ItwasabusySundayevening;theparkinglotwasfulndwholefamiliesofshopperswerehurryinghereandthere,stogupfortheingweek.Dimitriwasrummagingthroughthegarbage,hiscartfullofemptys.Heybecausethescouldberecycledforanickepiedhecouldlookforwardtoagoodmealtheday."Moneyiseverywhereifonlyyouwouldlookforit"hethought.Inthegarbagefrontebakery,hefoundabagofpartiallyeatendoughnutsandbuns."Whatawaste!"hethoughtashebitintohisdelicioustreat.Hefinishedoneandputtherestintohiscartforfutureenjoymentbeforetinuinghissearptys.Suddenlyhebecameawareofthepresenceofanotherperson.Apairofwomaindarkbrowoppedinfrontofhimandstoodstill.Dimitri’seyestraveledupwardsfromthoseshoestothefadsawMarianna,eyesmoist,standingtherelookingathim.
"Amalia,Idon’treallyknowwhenmylifeonthisearthbegan,butit’sbeenalong,longtime.Myfleshcamefromyou,andwiththatbodycamefate,soul,thoughtandalltheotherattributes.Theseexistonlythroughandinapaofthefleshbody,withoutwhichfateaed.Withoutthefleshbody,alltheseattributeswouldbemeaninglessandinsignifit.Fate,forexample,hasalwaysbeenatroversiandunanswerablequestioralstatebetweeentandent.Lookingbathepast,youwillfindanobviousbuthelessexistingtrack,whichyouthinkwouldbeentbeforeyoufindit.Fateandfleshbodyareactuallytwo-in-oneandone-in-two.Ah,Amalia!myfleshisyourfleshandmyblood,yourblood.SinceIamyourfleshandblood,Imustacceptthepainthatfatehasimposedonmyfleshbody.ButyourlifeisoneofsinandIwishIcouldusemyfleshbodytoatoneforit.OnlyIdon’tknowwhetherthatispossibleornot”.
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Itwasgetting1ate.Thedaywasdrawingtoacloseandtheskiesgraduallydarkened.Dimitriytherezilyonhisbench.Hisdayhadgonebyhazily.Inhissubsciousness,hehadbeenawareofshadowsofpeopleingandgoing:Twomountedpoliceofficersambledbyandhadtiedtheirhorsesuheshadeofsometreeswhiletheytooktheirbreakbeforeresumingtheirpatrol.Amadoldassedbymungonabunchofbananas,whichshepeeledonebyoossingtheskinsintothegarbagewhenshehadfinished.Nooneeverknewhername.Wheninagoodmood,shewouldturnprankish,puttingapsticbagoverherfadmakefacesatpeople,ughinghappilywhenshefoundtheywerescared.Butwhenshewasangry,shewouldshoutandcussatthetopofhervoice,gesturingvehemently.Dimitriadmiredhergreatlyforherlifestyle,forabandoningherselffreelyairelytohermoodswings.Otherpedestrianshadpassedbytoo,butnowallweregonehekwhere.
Leavingtheclumpoftrees,Dimitritinuedonhisway.Heraisedhisheadandsawthatnotfarawayfromhimabedofblood-redroses,brilliantandgeous,werebloomingvigorously.Hereproachedhimselffornotnotigthemearlierduringhiswalksaroundtheke.Itwouldhavebeenapityifhemissedthemintheprimeoftheirbeauty,hethought.
Chapter4LifeStoriesofAisha,Stephanie,Angelica,
"Whymentionallthis?Youshoulduandme.Iretmeetingyouwhen1amnolongerfree."
"Dimitri,wouldyoudomeafavorandworkintheyardtoday?The1awnneedsmowingareeshavetobeprunedandtrimmed.Iknowyoulovegardening,sowouldyoustayhometodayanddoitforme?"
ThecoldaeousMedusawaswaitingtotraiheartofwar.Attractedbyherbeautyandshakenbyherseverityandsterheybecamewillingpupilsahroughherrigoroustrainingscheduledocilely.DimitriwatchedallthisandwasfortedbythethoughtthatthoughIleenhadbetrayedhim,themajorityofthebeautieswereloyandwillingtosharehisfatewhichwasatstake.Shoutsofbattlecouldbeheardingfromthevalleyandmessengerscametoreportonthecourseofthebattle,butDimitriwasnottroubledbecausehekhatohesecrettunnelreparedforwar,itregnable.Newsoldiersjoihebattleaftertheirtraining,bringingwiththemrengthandvigor.Dimitriwatchedthemandthought,"Thesearetheonlybeingsnotbornofthehumanuterus,thestraandmostmysteriousofhumanansforreproduwhilywomehislookslikeamaledominatedworld,butiyitistrolledbywomen.”
"No,yourmajesty"ohemsaid,"weotrestyet.Ifthereisgoingtobefightigetthemedicalsuppliesready.Foodtofeedthetroopsmustalsobeprepared.Weotletthemgohungry.”Dimitriwasdeeplymovedbytheirselflessloyalty.HebrushedbackthetousledcurlsoftheCaucasiaywithhishands,rubbedoffspecksofcakedmudfromthefaceoftheLatiyandiedtherawandbleedingfingernailsoftheOrientalbeauty,telliogetitateoatohenhewalkedbrisklyawaytoMedusa’ssideofthehill.ThebeautieswerehappyandfortedtoseethatKingDimitriobviouslyappreciatedandcaredforthem.Theydispersedto,getdressedandthengoabouttheirdutieswithrenewedenergy.
Thehousetybutthehecoffeetabletoldhereverything.Itsaid,"Beholdthefowloftheair:theysownot,herdotheyreap;yetyourheavenlyfatherfeedththem"signed"Withlove,DimitriJaariannalookedfromthenoteinherhandtothediamerwithmixedfeelings.Shehadgainedavaluableringbuthadlostabelovedman.Hadshegainedorlost?Knowinghewouldbeonfootpushinghiscartbeforehim,sherushedoutaothepcessheknewhefrequented;buthewasobefound.Afterthatshelookedforhimdesperately,worriedthathewouldingwelndhadosleep,butfindingnotra,sheuoodthatDimitriwasavoidingheronpurpose.Hehadprobablygooanotherdistrict,awayfromhisusualroutes.Beingamaturewoman,sheuoodthewisdomofDimitri’sdecisionandbowedtotheiable.Gradually,shetrolledherfeelingsaaboutpreparingfortheingofherhusbandandson.
"Hm...Iguessso.It’smoresoothingandromantic.”Shesmiledandlookedaroundtheroom.Whenhereyesfellontheopeeraoonthecoffeetable,herheartskippedabeat.SheraisedhereyestoDimitri.Thepainonhisfacetoldherhekneweverything.
"Allright,allright,Iwill."shesaidreassuringly.SheknewDimitrioftenfusedhisdreamswithreality,butshewasedabouttheunusualexpressiononhisface.Shewaokeephimhome,outofharm’sway,insteadofwanderingaboutinhiscurrentstateofmind,soshesaidtohim,
"Oh,it’syou,Marianna.Whatareyoudoinghere?"
"It’smyfault.I’minahurry.Thisshouldtakecareofthedamages.”ShesteppedonthegasandwasabouttodriveonwhensheheardMariannasay,
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“Thereisnopossibilityofaquicksuccess”insistedonegeneral.
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ThemafterDimitri1eft,headlinenewsinthepapersreportedontheexplosionatseaofaluxuryyachtbelongingtoMr.Kaffee,presidentofWorldBank;butnotracesofthemanhadyetbeenfound.Itwentontosaythatthesubsequentpowerstrugglebetweentwofasofhislieutenantshadclimaxedinagunfightinwhichthirtypeoplehadbeenkilledorwounded.AmongstthedeadwasMr.Kaffeeswife,Ileen.
Dimitrishookhisheadandcamebacktorealitythinking
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KingDimitri’sWomen
"Whatareyoustaringat?Getup,getdressedandgoaboutyourwork!"Itwasasifshewasayounggirgainihthemanofherdreams.
Itwasonlyfivethirtyiernoon.ThefieryraysofthesettingsundyedLakeMerrittintoapoolofblood-redwater.Dimitriregrettedspendingthedayinthinkingandreminisg,asitmadehisheadache.Hismindwasn’tclearanymoreandheneededarest.Butagain,histhoughtswaohismotherAmalia.Ifshewasn’tinHeavebeinHellediernalfmesofGehenna.Hecouldalmostvisualizethedespairingandagonizingexpressiononherfaceasshestruggledtefromthescorgriver,onlytosinkdeeperintothebottomlesspit.
WhenDimitriwokeupearlythem,hefoundMariannasittingquietlybyhisbed,ionfinishingaredscarfshehadbeenknittingforquiteafewdays.Reluttodisturbher,hefeastedhiseyesonthisdomestie,butsomehowshesehathewasawakeandlookedupfromherknitting.Themeetingoftheirfoureyesbroughtonapleasureofintimadtheysmiledateachother.
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BythehaddispersedandthebrightsunlightshiningstraightonhimmadeDimitri,whohadfullyrecoveredfromhishangover,feeldizzy.Helookedupatthevastexpanseofclearblueskieswithoutthetraceofasinglecloudandasuddenpaniccameoverhim.
BeforeMariannacouldgetoutofherway,theoningcarbrushedherfenderandstopped.Rollingdownthewindow,MariannafounditwasnotMrs.Kaffee,butKatherihewomanwhotookrs.Kaffee’sjewelryandexpeumes.ShewasabouttotalktoherwhenKatheriookadiamfrerandthrewittoMariannathroughbothoftheircarwindows,saying,
"Iwillsleepheretonight"hedecided.”Itisspringnow,soitshouldoocold.IfIcouldleavethisrealworldbehindmeandlieforeverinmydreamnd,theidealretreatwouldbeamidtheseexquisiteroses.”Sleepingalonightintheparkbroughtwithitassociationofghosts.Whenhewasaboy,Dimitriwasafraidofghosts,butlovedtolistentosepulchralstoriesofghostsanddemons.Nowthathewasgettingoninageandcloserandclosertohisfiiheearth,hewasnolongerafraidofthem.Orary,theirexistenisedaensionofthislifeinanotherworld.Inawaythistookawaymuchoftheapprehensionandfearofdeath.ToDimitri’scuriousandinquisitivemind,hewaseveastewhat1ifehereaftermeant,tolearnwhatthedifferencewasbetweenmenandghosts.
"Howdidyouknow?"sheansweredsurprised.Dimitrisatuponthebedandsaidurgently,
“Shehasnevershownanyloveoraffeforme,butIamfleshofherfleshandbloodofherblood.Thereisaninvisibletiebetweenusandmyyearningforherincreasesyearbyyear.Ah,mightaswellgetdrunktonightbecauseoipsy,allmyworriesandcaresevaporatewiththewind.”
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Dimitriwentbacktohisbendydownlistlessly.Hethought,
"Faintbluemountains,faintredskies,
"Well,prettysoonI’llbegoingtoMrs.Kaffee’s.YourememberItoldyouIpromisedtocateradinnerforthem.Iwon’tbehometilltetonight.”
"Wherearetheclouds?WherehasAmaliagoo?"Hegotintoahystericalfrenzyandranaroundshouting,"Amalia!Amalia!Whereareyou?"Buttherewasnoanswerfromtheskies,noclouds,noAmalia.Dimitrisatdowedlyonthebendthought."WherecouldAmaliahavegoo?PerhapsshefellfromthecloudsbacktoHell.Heenvisionedawideexpanseofdesert,torrid,dryandshadeless,withtheraysofninesunsbzingdownonthered-hotsandsofironore.Amaliawascrawlihem,pantingwiththirstandhalfdeliriouswiththeheat.Dimitricouldolookandcried,"Amalia,areyousorrynowforyoursins?Youmustbe!"Butthen,herememberedherwords,"Don’tthinktwicebeforeyouaceathingisdone,neverregret.”No,Amaliawould.Theexpressiononherfaceainful,yetrebelliousandremorseless.AhAmalia!Repent!Perhapsyouattainabsolution.TellmehowIhelpyouleaveyourpainfulenviro.Perhapswhatyouneednowisagssofcejuice,buthowIgetittoyou?Thedimensionsseparatinguseasuredbytimeorspace.AhAmalia!HowIleaveyoutosufferallone?"
Atthatmoment,thephantomsoftheRomanlegionsevaporatedintodarkclouds.Thesedarkcloudsgatheredoverheadandtorrentsofrainpoureddown.RaindropsfellonDimitri’swarriorswhobegabatothesoilfromwhichtheyhadsprung.Ileen’sbody,whichwasalsomadeofearth,sooedtoo.Dimitriwatchedashissoldiersdisappeared,justashisenemieshad,andhewalkedonaloheraintowardsthevalleythinking,"Letwhatshoulddispersebedispersed,andwhatshouldturntodustbeturodust.WhenJehovahmademan,heordaihat‘Dustthouartanduntodustthoushaltreturn’.Afterdeath,withtheextinguishmentofthefleshbody,willloveandhatedispersetoo?Orwilltheyremainforever?"
Acrossthestreet,severalteen-agerswaitingfortheirschoolbus,ughing,jokingandengaginginhorsepy.Lookingonatthemenviously,Dimitrithoughtofhisownyouthwhichhadbeenenvelopedinapalebluemistofsorrowandmencholy.
"OhAmalia,youcheapnastywoman!”hecriedbitterly."Youuseyourfleshbodyasatoolforyourownpleasures,hinkingitistherootofallevilthatgivesrisetedies,ofwhichIamone.Youmiserablestrumpet,youcallmeabitch’sbastard.Whatdoesthatmakeyou?Abitch!”Hestrodeaboutangrily."Abitch!Bit...hic..ch!”Hiccupsstoppedhiswords."Bit...hic...ch!Stopthat!"hesnappedangrilyathishiccup."You’realsoason-of-a-bitch!Hic”Hepulledouthisbottleandtriedtodrownhisannoyinghicliquor."Oh,yes,whenIwassmallIlivedlikeawilddog,beggingformediewhenIwasill,rummagingingarbagesforfoodandclothes.Younevercaredahootaboutme,thoughItriedsohardtopleaseyou,sohard…”
"Youletmeliveonlytosufferoncemore.”JustasDimitritriedtoexpin,hewokeup.
“Manismorefortuhanotheranimalsinthatduringtheslowprocessofevolution,asedselfwasbornthatcouldthinkforitself.Thisiswhatnootheranimalhas.Itissimpletosatisfytheneedsofthefleshbody,whilyrequiresfood,shelterandsexualsatisfa.Butmaniscalledtheofanimalsbecausehehasabodywhioloisfiedwithsuchbasieedsandwhitainsasedselfthatthinkforitselfandcouldorderthebodytoperpetuallyseekenjoyment,lustandgreed.Butthatthinkingsedselfalsohasthepowersofself-examination,whichproducesthestandardsofbehavior.Withtheexistenmuhesestandardsbecameintricatewswhitrolthefleshboingoutofbounds.Likewise,moralitytrolsthesedselfsothatitwouldnothavetoomuchfreerein.Soweetothequestion‘Whatislife?’Ithinklifeisjusthowtomanageourfleshbody.Itshouldcarefullymonitorourthinkingsedselfbecauseithasthecapacitytodobothgoodandevil”.
“No,I’mfantasizingagain.IfAmaliawereliving,she’dbeasilver-hairedfeebleoldwomaninhersevehere’snowayshe’dbeabletodancegracefullyasawillow.Howdoesonegrowold?Isitthesprihatblowsyearafteryear,mperceptiblyblowingawayyouryouthandyourstrength,addingwrinklesandsilverhair?”Hesuddenlyrememberedapictureheoncesawinamagazineaboutamurdercasewhereawomanhadbeendismembered.Thepolicecollectedthepartsofherbodyandputthemintobiggsstainersofformaliheywouldbekeptasevidehouteverdeteriorating.Oainerhadagradcurvaceousarminit,anotheraperfectlyformedandwellproportioheostruckhimmostwasthetaihthehead,wherethesadtenanceseemedtstillforshecouldneverbeputtogetherandmadewholeagain.Ifalivingpersonreservedinitperhapsshewouldneverageandherbeautywouldliveonforever.Dimitriughedathimselfhalf-hysterically.I’mgettingweird.Apnezoomedoverhead.
Ah!gentlebreeze,disturbnotmysweetdreams.HowdidIgrowold?Iknownot.Wasitthesprihatblewmeold?EvenifIweretogrowoldthus,Imindnot.Letmegotodreamndamidtheflowers,thebirdsandthespringbreeze.Golden-hairedMaryesrunninghither,herlongtressesflyinginthebreeze,herbreastsslightlyswelling,hereyesbrightandmoistehegesinherbodyaremiraculous,likeadewyrosebudreadytoblossomintoared,redrose.MissSimpsonesby,punctuallyat3:30p.m.withher90-lbgolderieverSpeedy.Shetellsallwhowouldlistenthatofherthreeformerhusbands,nonewereasfaithfusSpeedy.HerfifthhusbandMarkwasamentallyretardedboy,tall,fatandobedient.Theirtwosilhouettescouldoftenbeseenintheraysofthesettingsun.OldEdwardalwayswalksbentlikeabow,hisheadonthelevelwithhisknee.Whenheseessomeoriesthtenupaendtobethemanheisn’t.Hewasobeseefewweeks.Somesayhehasdiedandgooheaven.Alllivingthingssooergoontheirgrave-boundway.Foes,knavesespasshtheages.HowdidIgrowold?Iknownot.Letmelieonthisbenthepark.Letthespringbreezeblowmeold.Letmyfleshbodydreamonamidthefragrantblossomsandthesingingbirds.Inthiswarm,cozyspringbreeze,manshouldremainforeveryoung.ButifIamtogrowoldthus,Idon’tthinkIwouldmindatall.
Walkihesuspensietowardstheesestylebuilding,Aishawasstruckwiththepletesilence.Usuallythepcewasfullofughterandactivity;butnow,withoutitsmaster,allhadbeelifelessandstagnant."Wherehaseveryonegoo?"shethoughtassheeheemptyhallwithitsmajestiishings,meticulouslykeptupandimposingasever;butitallthemoreemphasizeditspreseion.WhenKingDimitriwashere,thehallwasfullofmusidsinginganddeliciousfoodwasserveduhedlelightandnternsbythebeautiesadorhpreciousjewels.Lifethenwasbusyafundfullofmeaning.ShewalkedupthestairstothesedfloorandpausedforamomentatthelongFrendowsoverlookingthecrystalclear,icy-coldgoon,andrememberedwithnostalgiahowKingDimitritookthemboatingsometimesuhemoonlight,sometimesinadrizzlingraintheywouldsitinthepyingmusistrumentsandsinging,drinkingwineandenjoyingthedifferentaspectsofthenightseonthegoon.Hereyestraveledtothesurroundingmountainsandrememberedhowhetookthemmountain-climbingandhunting.WhatamanKingDimitriwas!Heuoodlifeandhowtoenjoyittothehilt-anepicureanahetitheyalllovedandrespected.Aishawalkedontothestdoorandope.Itwasherprivatequarters.
Dimitriyawnedandsatupfromhisbench,stretgzily.Thetraffichadbeeheavier,thenumberofschoolchildrenintheparkhadincreased,bringingwiththemabuoyantnoisinesswhichmadesleepoutofthequestion.Dimitriwalkedslowlytowardsthekeandlookedatthewater,theskyandtheclouds.Iahechimingofchurchbellsannoungeveningvespersbroughtwithitafeelingofweariness,whieswiththecloseofday.Dimitrithought,"Imeanttotakeafortablenapuhewarmsunandspringbreeze,butinsteadIgavefreereintomythoughtsandwhiledthetimeaway.Ihaven’tcollectedanymaterialformydreamseither.Ohwell,let’sseewhatwilleintomydreamstonight."
Iamayouthlearningtobedivine.”
Muddywaterandfragrantperspiratioogetherspottedandshoheirlongflowinghairastheiyoftheirworkincreasedinthislife-ahcrisis.Heavybreathingcouldbeheardastheywentabouttheirarduoustask.Thetwenty-fourbeautieswithslenderfingersmoldedthesculpturaltfighterswithbulgingmusclesintheirarmsandlegsandalsotheiableansassignsoftheirmasestrength.Thenthebeautieswouldblowtheirbreathintothemandtheywouldetolife-strongmuscursoldiers.Theproudcreatorwouldthenpathercreationonthebadsay,"Begood,myboy”andsendhimtotheothersideofthehill.Soonhundredsofsoldierswerecreated.
"Mrs.Kaffee?"DimitrisuddenlyassociatedthewomanwhomadetroubleforhimatthegasstationwithMrs.Kaffee,Marianna’spresenter."IsherfirstnameIleen?IsherhusbandpresidentofWorldBank?"
Theliquorsentastreamofwarmthrightdowntohisabdomen.Dimitrifelttipsyandwasetedagain.Heughedandtalkedtohisunseenaudiehisfleshbodyisamiracleofevolution,butitisalsoagreathindrahesoulcouldbeseparatedfromthebody,Iwouldrathergiveupmyfleshbodybecauseallsinsandlustsstemfromit.”Hethoughtforamomentandthenshookhishead."No,thisbodyofoursistheproductofbillionsofyearsofgeandshouldnotbelightlygivenup.Andwhoknowsforsurewhetherthebodyandthesoulbeseparated?Iwilltiobeonthealertandwatchoverit,toseethatitdoesnoevil.IthinkIhavedoneagreatjoballtheseyears.Yes,Ihave.”Heughediationandwavedahandatthemyriadofstarstwinklingintheskysaying,"IwilnnouoallyouheavenlybodiesthatI,DimitriJa,havemanagedmyfleshbodywell.Despitemyhumbleins,Ihaveitdoanyevil,soIneedfearherGodnormaookanotherdrinkandsaidtothehostsofcrimsonrosessurroundinghim,"Doyouknow?YouandIarediffereures.0urexistehisearthofoursmakesitdifferentfromandfarsuperiortothosethousandsofstarsoutthereinthesky.Ha,ha,ha”Exultantlyjubintandalittlehazy,hesaidtothem,"Rose!Rose!Youareattheheightofyourbeauty.Pleasedon’twitherawaywhileI’masleep!"Hiswordsturoamumbleaumbledtothegroundandfellfastasleep.Heseemedtohearachorusofbeautifulsopranovoidhisagingbody,likeahalf-hollowedtree,wasinvigoratedbyitandmadefulloflifefain.
Dimitriwokefromhisdreamfeelinggloomyanddepressed,withnoreadypnsofdefenseagainstthisfatalcrisis.ForthetimebeitheothersbacktotheirsurveilsaabouttheseeminglyimpossibletaskofproteghiskingdomagainstIleerayal.Suddenly,hewasstruckwiththeideathatifhecouldbriolife,socouldhedoitwithothers.Hewasoverjoyedandgatheredhisbeautiestogether.Hegavehisordersbriskly:The500ablebodiednativeswerethtlythesecretpassagenightanddayforthreedays.Itwasalongandwindingvalley,easytoguardbutimpossibletocapture.ItwasinallysuggestedanddesignedbyIleenasameansofescapeinergency,butithadnowbeehermeansofrevenge.Heorderedboatstoberowedoutandalltheothersweretoldtocrossthekewithhimtothebarrenhillsoherside.Theyweremystifiedwhentheyweretoldtalongspadesandbuckets.Itwasgrowingdark.Campfireswerebuiltalroundthedesote,barrenhill,whichwasatoransformedintoaseofbustlingactivity.Thetwenty-fourbeautieswerebusycarryingwater,lookingforthesoil,sievingthedmixiogethertomakemudcakesforthecreationofnewlives.Theyhaddiscardedtheirloose,floatingsilkgownsastoocumbersome.Nowtheywerewnaked.Inthehardworkofcarrying,diggingormixing,theirtallslenderaifulfiguresretainednimbleelegandgrace,provingtheywerenotjustsexualsymbolsmadefortheenjoymentofmen.
Itreiterateditselfagainandagain,untilDimitricouldn’thelpsingingalongwithit.Themistgraduallydispersedandthenoiseandcmorofcitylifebeganagain.
MariannayasshedrovetowardstheKaffee’sluxuriousmansioakenashower,putonherbestsuitandwaslookingforwardtothesubstantialtipshealwaysgotfromMr.Kaffee."SomesayMr.Kaffeeisanunscrupulousman,adonoftheMafia”shethought.“Buthelookslikeanice,generousoldmantome.Why,ifhelikedthefoodIcookforhimandhisfriends,hemightevengivemeafewthousanddolrs!"Andshedimpledatthethought.Theseryhadgottenmorebeautifusshedroveon.Theviewfromtherightsidewindowwastheowithitsppingbluewater;fromhersideshecouldseeendlessspansofmountainranges.Adeadseagullfloatedoer,iandlifeless,softlyppedbythewaves.Lifeahmightseemliketwooppositeextremes,butthedifferencewasactuallyslight.Thatsamebodyhadoncebeenalivelymemberofaflock,flyingfreelyandhappily,butnowitydesertedanddisregarded.TheroadseemedtobebuiltfortheKaffees,astherewerenootherhousesinsight.Suddenly,herthoughtsturoherhusbandandsonandherfacesoftehinkingoftheirimmireunion.ButoherhandtherewasDimitri,whomshetrulyloved.Butonceherhusbandandsoheywouldhavetopart.ThinkingofDimitri,shefrowned.
"Iwaswrong,Ileen.Itwasmyfaultand1willmakeupforit.Fromnowonyouarefree.Freetodowhateveryouwanttowithnofearofretribution.”Asifwantingtosaysomethingbutrefrained,Ileenkowtowedandturogo.ButjustthewoAsiahatwerealwaysbythesideofhisthroneroaredandrushedoutather,toppliheground.Dimitriimmediatelyshoutedatthemandorderedthemback,butthedamagehadbeendone.Ileenwasagainabloodymass,thoughstillive.Sheyonthegroundandlookedathimcoldly,hereyesfullofhate.
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Inthedeadsilenlythesoundofoarshittierwasaudible.Hewalkedashoretowardsthetreeonthedesotehilndthebloodysefshedoncemorebeforehim.HeseemedtoseethetophalfofIleen’sbodyhangingfromthetreewhilethebottomhalfbelowthewaistybloodyandmaheground."WhatIdotoremedythis?"heaskedhimself.ShewasoherarebeautiesinthisworldandIorderedhertobechoppedinhalf!"HehadastrongwishtomakereparationstoherandbringherbacktolifeagaioryoftheCreatioohismind,sohescoopedsomeofthebloodysoilfromthegroundandtookittothewater’sedge,wherehemixeditwithwaterandshapeditintotheformofawoman.Hewashesitant,notquitesureifitwouldwork,butheblewonitanywayinimitationofJehovahanditgrewbiggerandbiggeruntilitmiraculouslyturoIleeifugasever.
"Whyareyousogoodtome?I’mnotworthyofyourkindness.”
"Itwillcostthelivesoftoomanyionaries!"criedanother.Justthen,itortedthattherewassomeosidethetentaskingtoseetheChiefturionwithpnstodefeattheeheDohepersonthtforthatonce.DimitriwastakenabacktofinditwasIleen,whomhehadkilledbutterresurrectedianceforhisharshness.Herfacesobeautiful,wasnowscarredbythecwsofthetigers,andhereyeswerefullofhatreday.
"YourMajesty!YourMajesty!”
Meanwhile,theiigableMedusawasthere,beautiful,imposingandstern,eyesgleaming,stillfullofenergyinspiteofthreedaysofintensedrilling.Hershiningbckskinenhancedherwild,primitiveAfribeauty.Tenthousandfightersstoodatattentionbeforeherwhilesheiedtheirranks.KingDimitristrodeontotheptformtoreviewhistroopsandsawthattheywerereadyforbattle.ThehueandthesecrettunnelhaddecreasedAftertryingfruitlesslyforthreedaystogairy,theenemywasobviouslygettingdiscedandtired.Itwastheidealtimeforaterattack.Dimitriatoransformedhimselftoasavagedeitywiththebodyofamanbuttheheadofamonster,withrhinoceroshornatthetopofhishead.Thefightersgaveashoutofjoyatseeingsuidableleader.LedbyDimitriandMedusa,theychargedthroughthesecrettutackedtheRomanLegions.DimitrifeltasthoughhewaschargingthroughtheMongoliangrassndo-footedsteed,ahoughhewasfightinginthedesertwithitsendlessexpanseofyellowsand.